"出來"社會工作 (六)～Ａｍｅｎｄｅｄ Ｖｅｒｓｉｏｎ

原來，考驗不斷的出現在我眼前．



沒關係，我一直對自己說．算是自我安撫吧．

之前，有位同業好友，我都習慣性的吐心事給他聽．

但因他已另找謀生去了而沒再聯絡，已漸漸會到以往的作風，就是工作上的喜，怒，哀，樂．．大都自己去承受．但，畢竟事業上的事還是比較盼望可以有個同行的人來訴說一般．

唉．．．無奈的，沒這種機會了．

很想聯絡他，或想像以前那樣的ｓｍｓ訊息給他，至少也會回復一些鼓勵的話，讓我感覺好起來．但如過再跟人家講這些東西，可能會把人悶死囉．



請問ｂｒｏｔｈｅｒ，你的業務，生活都還好嗎？



沒關係，比起以前，覺得自己比較能處理及安置自己的心境了．回頭思考，我反而覺得，一些人生的事，還是始終得要自己坦然的，堅強的去面對，也是必然之事實，笑口常開再重新出發．如友人所說＂明天不一定會更好，但更好的明天一定會到！＂

今晚上，一個人剛剛去了ｃａｆｅ喝咖啡，我的電單車就拍了店舖的隔壁，是很靠近巴剎的地點，剛好那有擺了一箱箱的雞籠，往上面的一個疊接著一個，，裡面都＂囚禁＂著好多的雞．從牠們眼神表露出來，我能感受到慌張，緊張，恐懼的心情．各各看到像我這樣的人類，一定心裡感受到怕的要命．．因為分分鍾，死亡之神就會來勾取牠們的靈魂去的．．．我在想，我每天要面對的，肯定不會比牠們的來的難過，悽慘吧！！！

珍惜眼前的一切．．．．．


待續吧＞＞

China's Web users top 250m on back of disasters, Olympics

China's online population, already the world's largest, has swelled to 253 million, an official report said, driven by news events such as natural disasters and the Beijing Olympics.

The number of Internet surfers in China grew by 56 percent in the year to the end of June, the government-linked China Internet Network Information Centre said in its latest half-yearly report posted on its website Thursday.

Online music, news and instant messaging were the most popular applications, it said.

Readers of online news hit 206 million in the first half of this year, compared with 155 million in the second half of 2007, said the report.

"A series of significant news incidents that took place (meant) more netizens looked for related information on the Internet," it said.

Natural disasters such as snow storms during the Lunar New Year holiday and the earthquake that hit Sichuan province in May were huge news events online, along with news of the Olympics that start on August 8.

People younger than 30 accounted for 69 percent of total Internet users, the report found, adding that 29 percent of users accessed the Internet with mobile phones, reflecting the rapid growth of cellphone subscribers to 601 million at the end of June.

The report said that with 19 percent of the 1.3 billion population accessing the Internet, China lagged the global average of 21 percent.

While the fast-growing online population has made the Internet a new forum for Chinese to express opinions in a manner rarely seen on the strictly government-controlled traditional media, the communist government does attempt to keep tight controls on how it is used.

President Hu Jintao called last year for efforts to "purify" the Internet, and in March the authorities introduced a licensing system in the online video service sector in the latest example of tightened government control.

遺憾是極度.．．當你使別人對你有同樣遺憾的感覺

前陣子，因為自己處理情緒上弄不好，而導致工作及人際關係上出了差錯．

我因此而失去了一個好伙伴，還有我們之間難得建立過的的友誼．

過後的日子，猶如在為自己的所作所為感到煎熬，感到遺憾甚深．

後來，慢慢，慢慢的把自己振作起來了，却昨日聽聞了那位好友因我的挫折而影響了他的業績．．他也在其他朋友面前表明說真的覺得很可恨也很遺憾為甚麼我們之間會落到這種地步．跟讓我覺的不可寬恕自己的是，他仍然還替我覺得可惜，為甚麼本是一位好人好者會踏出錯誤的舉動和決定．．．

當我知道了這狀況後，我整個人感覺猶如心臟被挖掘出來了！！　我不能在面對我自己．．．我竟然讓人家對我徹底失望，遺憾！！！

彌漫的内疚感包圍了我整個身驅，．我真的感覺到極度的遺憾．．因為我使別人對我有同樣遺憾的感覺．．我可真正的感到極度的遺憾，為甚麼我讓別人對我的所作所為感到遺憾．．．．．．

啊！！天呀．那種感覺很哀傷，悲痛．我很渴望能說一千聲，一萬次的　＂對不起＂但這三個字瞬間就很快的在空氣中消失無影無蹤．．永遠沒辦法道出來給對方聽．